Wishing on an Empty Star

If I laid next to you beneath the stars
And you knew I had something to say
Would you be brave and curious to ask?

I would search for a falling star in the sky
And wish that you felt the same too
If not, that you would give me a chance

I find that I’m scared and lost in your eyes
Intimidated, you make my stomach churn
And my heart races like I’m being chased

If you ran your fingers across my palms
I would count each stroke of grace
And ask for nothing more

Unfolding

I’ve got a whisper of a thousand voices
And little secrets swept under my carpet

I’m just another little cracked photograph
With a deeper meaning hidden in my frame

19 and I’ve already got a long list of mistakes
Shades of grey and I’m just losing my name

I’m a wheel with no direction but motive to move
And stranded in nowhere with a slim chance of rain

I got caught and tangled in the winds of yesterday
With a bouquet of sheets of notes he once played

Measure me and I’m not so small in the world
On another page, my eyes try to say otherwise

I’m a key waiting to find my door and find home
And I don’t think all I’ve done makes me wrong

19 and I’ve got my fingers set on my dreams
Just another day down and waiting for the next

Null and Void

I remember when I used to wake
And always wore a bright and colorful smile
Yet I face just another grey eyed morning
That predicts another broken melody ahead

My heart is now but a book with pages
Some written, empty, and others worn
In the midst of all this chaos, I can’t remember
The last moment I felt truly warm

There is a vacancy reserved for one more
Another set of hands to wake my dormant glow
So that I may feel and breathe again
And take another chance down that risky road

Please Go Away

My heart skipped a few beats when I ran across your messages
What happened to those dreams we promised to always fight for?
Oh how I hate how you gave in so easily and didn’t try to warn me
For so long, you faked it all so well and deceived me with those eyes

I may have had my issues but at least I kept my word of honesty
You walked away and blamed me for my undesired imbalances
How was I supposed to know I was slipping into nature’s cruelty?
As I held onto a string of hope that you would try to stick around

If only you could understand that things weren’t supposed to end
And the coordinates in my palms do not match those of in the sky
In my dreams I still feel your presence when I cry alone at night
My world will never be the same again, the night you slipped away

My Desire for Your Encounter

Among the stars and beyond my palms
lies a highway and coordinates to you
however far or near, I will speak your name
In your eyes, I will find your heart to be mine

the winds know more than the scars I wear
and my tears have all had a story to tell
bounded by shadows I long for your warmth
a touch to waken my dormant and worn soul
if only at times thing didn't seem so blurred
and if only I knew of wings to bring you here

Vulnerable: A Heartbeat Away

Last night,
the stars misaligned
and the moon
refused to shine

I became lost
and wandered towards the sea
where I was a heart beat away
from fading into its depths

I'll find my way back
one day, just not today
not tomorrow
not anytime soon

The wind will guide me
the birds will comfort my soul
the sun will warm up my heart

I'll even question
is there a forever?
or is it all temporary
all in this life

things come and go
few truly stay
in the end
we all fade

among the fields
I'll sleep to dream
imagine a life
far from reality
far from mine

in bitterness
I'll be tempted to forget
what didn't come
and should have became

in the rain
I'll run and hide
from nothing and everything

For now,
I'll wander towards
a place
that calls my name
that takes me home

End the Fairytales and Lies

I’m tired of fairytales, where they paint a perfect life
Where love never hurts and it’s always perfectly pure
They lied to me, they made me vulnerable to you
You take so much from me that I’m so afraid to leave
I’m captured and chained, so seduced by your cold eyes
And I’m annoyed by our silence, but this is our reality
Tell me, there is still some slim chance for hope
Cause this heart is fading, barely fluttering in my palms
I’m not falling to pieces or torn just yet in the shadows
Saturated by tears, I’m lost in our reflection
I can’t bear to be alone, even if with you I cannot breathe
This is the meaning and feeling, of false compromise
Even if so much damage has been done by our own hands
I like to think that I’m still have a place in your heart

Unresolved Exit

If there has ever been a time
Where I have felt wounded
Just worn, unforgiving, and defeated
It’s now

I feel like a fragile leaf
Fallen from the stern tree
And into a river
Where I’m wrestling against the waves
Constantly abused and neglected
I can’t escape
Or momentarily catch a break

If tomorrow there was such an exit
I’d instantly jump and look no further
Without a doubt,
I would board the promising train
And escape all the ripples and currents
To avoid the daunting depths
And be torn no more

The Absence

The silence is rising and I'm motionless
all my hopes and dreams have dimmed
I'm engulfed by the loss and blow
it hurts when my absence is on my mind
come and go, the thoughts never stop
suddenly, everything has a significance
and wherever I go, everything is haunting me


I hope to drift away and never wake again
in my dreams and delusions, I'm not alone
and the scars and new wounds never burn
no more disconnections, no more emptiness

In this life, there is no air to breathe
in my reflection, I'm paralyzed by the tension
and perhaps the next, I'll fly away with a soul
complete and pure, there to fight for every cause
and I'm aware that the new course is irreversible
just to break the chains and leave the hollow shell

I'll come again, when I am ready

And to Think, This is Just the Beginning

The autumn leaves have begun to fall
soon the days will grow shorter
and the nights become eternal
things start to fade and slip away

I can't control my emotions
highs and lows, they tend to never cease
like the clouds, I grow grey
shedding tears and drift away

Suddenly, I'm not so numb at all
and I hurt all over again

Winter will come and stay
for a while and I'll be left cold
alone, with no warmth for a smile
just a heart that does not feel
nothing more than hate and pain
and eyes that can't hide this misery

And perhaps one day again,
I'll grow numb so I can sleep